Yeah…yeah….whatever

So yeah, I’m still here. I wonder if thats a good thing or a bad one?

Holidays are upon us. Turkey day came and went. Without any fighting, let me say I am the most shocked of all. My mom’s brother and my mom’s mom stopped by for a bit. Then my cousin stopped by with his family. Then his mom and his bro, (my tia, and other cousin), stopped by as well.

There was alot of screaming from the kids though. They ran around, yelled, made a mess, etc.

I’m still sick, so wasnt that great for me. Though it never is. I have been sick since October 24th I think. First with strep throat, that lasted about 2 weeks. I was ok for a whole 3 days, then I got a cold, and still have it. Sucks to be me and get sick.

Then today when I woke up… had some turkey again. Went to the store, but didnt buy nothing. I saw all the people shopping, how nice, wish I could shop. I dont expect much this christmas, cause money is an issue right now. I dont really care though. I would like to have some lights up, but all the ones we have are (no lie here) about more then 12 years old. So yeah, they gave in a while ago. We got a few lights a few years old, but not many, not enough to put up. We didnt have a tree last year, and from the looks of it, proly wont this year…

I dont look forward to Xmas.

My sister has court Monday I believe… more hell to break loose.

If I dont update for a long ass time, well then my net got cut.

I can’t…

I can’t breath anymore.
I can’t think anymore,
I can’t just be anymore,

Thing’s are insane,
Thing’s are getting to me like a cat to a mouse,
A dog to a cat,
A millionare to his money,

I want to run,
I want to scream,
But I have no where to run,
I have no breath to scream

Pains inside me,
In my head,
In my chest,
In my sides,
Im dying inside,
It’s killing my inside,

No one cares,
No one wants to know,
No one understandes,
Everyone ignores.

I can’t breath anymore.
I can’t think anymore,
I can’t just be anymore.

Adding to my bad week!

Ok yesterday my retarded stupid sister with extreme issues pissed me off EXTREMLEY!! She has 3 kids, 5, 2, and 9 month old kids. She snuck out early in the morning and left…. not taking the kids, not telling anyone. Her dude then leaves around noon to look for her… which I think is bullshit. I think they both wanted to leave and ditch the kids for a day, so she left first, cause they couldnt both leave, leaving the kids alone cause everyone else was asleep. So he would have to, “go look for her.” BULLSHIT!!!

So all day, we had the 3 kids, and let me tell you, GRR!!! She shouldnt be leavin either cause her legal issues. She takes off, goes does who knows what, while the 5 yr old asks for her all day, “when’s my mom coming home?” The 2 year old has been a little devil latley, be it cause the, “terrible 2′s,” or what but man she’s been bad. So has the 5 yr old. He’s getting really bad too, cause she lets him do what he wants, just so she dont have to deal with him. And when she does yell at him, its cause her stupid ass wants to sleep all day. And the 9 month old I think is teething real bad.

Where is she at 11:30pm when she finally answered the cell phone? AT A DAMN FUCKIN CASINO!!!!!

Believe me, you’d understand alot more if I could say what her legal issues were, but I cant. Lets just say she did some shit she shouldnt have, cost my family alot, and is still costing us alot.

For the kids sake, I hope she does get locked up. She’s a stupid bitch. Just cause she went and got her dumb ass pregnate 3 times, dont make her a mom. She cant fuckin play mom when she wants, and not when she dont.

Do my parents tell her anything when she gets home at 4am in the morning? NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! NO!

I swear, she better stay out of my face. I cant even hear her voice, or look at her, cause I am disgusted. Ive made myself sick because of how much I HATE her with extreme passion. Despise, hate, cant stand, any way you want to put it.

I get sick, get my chest pains from stress, from how she does all this crap and my parents dont SAY NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My dad dont say shit so my mom dont get mad, mom says nothing… why??? Fuck if I know. I dont care how many fights my dad and I get in because of her, but I am NOT keeping my mouth shut when this dumb shit head is doing this.

AND when you do tell her something, she goes crazy! Like she’s the innocent person and everyone is accusing her. HELLO!!! SHE IS NOT INNOCENT!!! SHE IS AT FAULT FOR EVERYTHING BAD IN THIS HOUSE THIS YEAR!!! AND proly ALL THE BAD TO COME NEXT YEAR!!!

Am I wrong? Should I not say shit, should I but out and let her do whatever the hell she wants? Fuck up, be a bitch, not take care of the kids right??

I dont know about you, but I sure as hell dont. Im not gonna let her walk all over everything like she is some damn pitty bitch, cause she got herself into trouble. I aint gonna pitty her, no way in hell. I HATE her.

Angry… and SKYPE!!!

Ok well first lets start off with why I am angry, then Ill talk about what SKYPE is. Ok why am I angry? Well right now, for three reasons.

1. My nephew Gaby yesterday hid my kitten in a table that we have in the living room. It closes, so its like a table box, I would take a picture but I cant cause I HAVE NO MORE CAMERA!!!!!! Anyways I was asleep when he went to school, and when I got up, I looked for my cat. Coulnt find her anywhere. It wasnt til he got home from school he got her out of where he put her. She was locked in there ALL DAY!!!!!!!!!! And no one does shit to him, they are all like, “leave him alone.” Im’a kick his ass.

2. Today I come home to see my nephew Gaby, and my niece Cici coming out of my room. They were PLAYING WITH MY COMPUTER!!!! They changed my desktop theme, they opened the drivers, they opened programs!!! And again, “leave him alone.” I swear this kid is gonna get knocked out tomorrow.

3. I HAVE NO CAMERA!!!!!!!!!

Ok now on to SKYPE.

Skype is the next phenomenon from the people who brought you KaZaA. Just like KaZaA, Skype uses P2P (peer-to-peer) technology to connect you to other users – not to share files this time, but to talk for free with your friends.

The technology is extremely advanced – but super simple to use… You’ll be making perfect quality free phone calls to your friends in no time! Just tell them to get Skype as well, if they don’t already have it.

CLICK HERE TO GO TO SKYPE!

So far this seems cool. It is still on beta, but do far its good. It sounds clear, and its free. Check it out!!

Quizes…

I was bored… so I took some quizes… here are the many results of those I took, results from the first try.

Selene
SELENE: You are selene!
Beautiful, vivacious,
fierce and seductive, Selene vowed she would
destroy Lycans after her family was murdered by
the werewolves. So ruthless is she that selene
is a member of the Death Dealers. This elite
Vampire warrior class’s mission is to make the
Lycans extinct. This 127-year-old
“aggressive hunter of the underworld”
combines a mastery of ancient weaponry with
modern pleasures, such as driving Jaguars and
using computers. However, Selene’s ambitions
are suppressed by Kraven. She longs for
Viktor’s reawakening so that he becomes the
Vampire’s regent once again.

Ever wish
you could be a vampire?
href=”http://quiz.ravenblack.net/blood.pl?biter=Archangel”>Then
Click Here to become a Vampire!

Which UNDERWORLD character are you?
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You are Morpheus-
You are Morpheus, from “The Matrix.” You
have strong faith in yourself and those around
you. A true leader, you are relentless in your
persuit.

What Matrix Persona Are You?
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Fight Club!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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Aquarius
You should be dating an Aquarius.
20 January – 18 February
Your mate is communicative, thoughtful and caring.
Though he/she can be tactless and rude and
sometimes self-interested, he/she enjoys the
intellectual experience of sex.

What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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cmajor
C major – the simplest key. You are content with
where you are now, you have what you need. Some
people are happy in C major, but it is up to
you to decide to push yourself further if you
want more from your life.

what key signature are you?
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Adritha is your Vampire name.
You are stunning to look at and to talk to. No
other type of Vampire has your creativity.
To use your new Vampire name and become a Vampire,
go here:
www.life-blood.vze.com

What is your Vampire name?
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HASH(0x8716bac)
You’re…Humphrey Bogart! Tragic, depressed, and
lonely in Casablanca until Ingrid Bergman comes
to cheer you up. You may appear to be a bit of
a cynic, but underneath you’re pretty
sentimental, and noble too. Here’s looking at
you, kid!

What Old Movie Star Are You?
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Spike
Spike: Horrid poet, turned merciless Vamp, turned
Neutered Vamp, turned Besoul’d Vamp. You’ve
been through it all. Royal badass and pain in
the ass, you are an essential member of the
Scoobies. Hey, sometimes it pays to have a
little evil in ya.

Which Buffy the Vampire Slayer Character Are You?
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My inner child is ten years old today

My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I’m off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don’t understand.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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I would have thought like 80yrs old or something.

Jokes… there are some you DONT make…

Right now this is gonna be just alot of bitching, and ranting. I wont say who I was talking to, or who done pissed me off, but I will say I am pissed.

Jokes… things ment to make us laugh, well they can be fun, and then there are things not to be joked about. The following are some not all, but some you DONT joke about… at least not with me.

Death
Serious Illness
Dangerous Situations

Those are 3 major things you dont fuck around with. You dont say someone died when they havent, you dont say you have something that you dont, and you dont joke around being in, or getting into a dangerous thing.

Why? Cause its not funny, its not joke material. ITS WRONG, and really fucked up thing to do. So those who havent done this, DONT. Those who have… a point, a few points have been lost… cause its not funny. Not to me, not about that.

Im not a person to care about shit, I dont care about alot, and not about many others, and I dont like to be messed with, not like that.

Its not funny to think something bad has happened. I dont know about you, but thats not a joke to me.

And to fuckin top it off, I HAVE NO MORE CAMERA!!!!! It broke!!! Im pissed off.

New Kitty & New Layout!!!

I got me a kitty!!!! Never had one before, so this is gonna be interesting. There are pics in the Pics section, in the Hacker folder. Im pretty sure the cats a girl, and her name is Hacker, name thought of courtesy of my friend Chris, (AdidaS).

So far her favorite toy is a yarn tied around a 76 Gas Station Orange Car Attene ball, tied to a stick. The ball is tied on one end that hangs and dangles, and she plays with it endlessly. She’s tail-less too.

Also as you can see, new layout, inspired by Fi’s So Weird site on the TV show, now dead SO WEIRD.

And to those I am suppose to link, dont worry, I aint forgotten. Ill add the bttns later after Gilmore Girls, and One Tree Hill.

Matrix Revolutions tomorrow!!! WOOHOO!! Hopefully I scrunge up 4 bucks to see a early showing. Before 6pm all shows are 4, and after its 6.50-8 depending which theater you go to, per adult, and 4-5.50 for per child depending what theater.

Someone had their first court day today. Dont know whats gonna happen, but I try to not think about it.

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