Its New Years Eve, and instead of posting right now what I had planned to, about going to Tucson Mon. and Tues., Im going to rant about tonight.

The stupid bitch that is my sister took off again. I went after her on my dads bike, but she had a 4 car lead on me, and when she turned the corner, once I reached it, she wasnt in sight. She had to have ducked into an alley. I had to stop at a corner for a car, so that also gave her more of a lead.

Instead of being with her kids, she takes off. I hope they do lock her ass up in jail. I hate her, I dont just not like her, I HATE her. HATE!! HATE!!! FUCKIN HATE!!!! WITH A PASSION!!!

I wait for the day she putts her hands on me, so I can kick her ass. I hate her. I dont care what happens to her, I hope they lock her up. I hope her kids forget who the hell she is, because they are better off without her.

My parents had gone to the casino, but came back, cause my other sister told them I took off after her. So they get home, and yell at who? ME. My dad himself has said we need to follow her. And when I do, he gets mad? WTF is that!

I cant take this shit much longer. I cant take being yelled at, or getting ignored, because they are mad at her. They take it out on me, and my other sister.

The stupid bitch can come and go, and leave her kids as she pleases, but we cant even go around the fuckin corner? Im gonna be 20 in March, and I still had to deal with this shit. I rather be fuckin dead.

I count the days til her court day, and hope she gets locked up, and I dont have to see her stupid face ever again:redx: :angry: :redx:

Today I had a strange day. My sister knocked on my door as I was trying to go back to sleep, from one of the numerous times someone had woken me up, and said that my dad said to get up, and dressed. We were going ot the store.

I went and told him, “but my mom’s not here.” My dad has never in his life that I can recall willingly gone shopping with us alone, without my mom. We went to the mall. Take it, I didnt get nothing, but my sisters each got a pair of shoes. One got some BBoots, and another got Phat Farm. Although I think they are both ugly, they still chose to get those, ignoring my suggestions to go with something nicer looking.

I didnt get anything cause what I do want I know I cant get. So I really dont care if I get anything at all. Im not a holiday person. I dont like holidays, especially Xmas, and Easter which Im sure Ive stated in one of my pasts blog entries.

I wrapped my nephew’s presents, and my niece’s presents today. Well ok, I tried to wrap, I did, but they look like crap… oh well, there gonna rip the paper anyways right?

I still havent gone to see Lord Of The Rings: The Return of The King. Hadnt had time, or money to go see it. I WANT TO SEE IT:redx::redx::redx:

My predictions for this movie is Arragon becomes King, Frodo Dies, and Sam ends up telling the tale of Frodo, you know the one they were joking about in the first movie? When Frodo said Sam would have his own story. Or if not Sam dies, and Frodo tells Sam’s story.

The fact that it was told that they would not show Seramon (sp?) in this ending piece pissed me off. Why not show it? Its already some 3 hrs, and 30min. Who cares if it runs 4hrs with the pieces in it. I SURE DONT.

Well, anyways, thats it for now. Wish my luck… cause I need all I can get.

Oh and if anyone out there reading this, gets a new Digi Cam for Xmas, I’ll be glad to take your old one off your hands .

:music: to: “Bye Bye Boyfreind” – Fefe Dobson

Well I’ve been meaning to blog, for those of you who actually read… but dont comment… hint, hint…

Same old tale for me though. In the last week, my moronic idiote of a sister has left about 3 times. Once for 2 days. My mom it looked like, was finally starting to not listen to my sister, but alas, seems like she still is.

She leaves, leaves her kids sick, and when she gets back, we’re not suppose to be mad (me and my sister, and my dad)? My mom gets mad at us, when we say anything about her. Its like whatever she wants, she gets. Who gives a rats ass about how we are, about our valid points that my sister is a stupid retarded idiot. Who cares that we all try and calm the kids down, when they are crying cause they want there mom, thought I dont see why they would want her.

I’m gonna have a heart attach cause of them. Shit my mom might have one cause of the ways he gets mad at us, cause we get mad at my sister when she does these stupid things. We’re not the ones doing the wrong here, yet it doesnt seem to matter.

I cant look at them without getting mad. I cant hear there faces without feeling sick from anger, and hate that I have towards them. I’ve even started to get my chest pains again, more often. Shit even as I write, my chest hurts. Just writing about it, I get them.

I’m getting physically sick, because of her, because she is from all I see, and know mentally sick, and just plain a dumb bitch.

I will most likley never get along with her again, ever. And I dont care. Everything she has done, and put us through, put me through, her kids through, I could care less. If it wasnt for my mom, I swear I dont know what I would have done to her by now.

But the moment she touches me when we argue, I will slam her on her ass so fast she wont know what day it is. We almost got into a fist fight, had my dad not stopped me, had I managed to open the door she was holding closed, that I was trying to push open. We were pushing the back gate door, and on the door there’s bolts that hold the wood onto the iron gate door. The ends stick out of the wood, and one of the bolts smashed into my arm as I pushed at it. It left the mark of the bolt, cause it went into my arm, and made this huge bump, that seems to be going down now though.

I feel trapped, and even though Im the only one who can free me, Im stuck.

Aside that, the holidays arent helping the way I am feeling right now. I helped my dad put lights up, but thats mainly just so the house dont look dead. Got to keep appearances up ya know…