Lack of sleep… yet again, always the same. Not like I ain’t use to it, but lately I haven’t been sleeping right. My sisters kids dont let me sleep. Not at night, not in the day, not in the afternoon, not any time!!!

At night the baby bangs on the wall. The 2 year old likes to scream and yell all night ’cause she doesn’t want to go to sleep. The 5 year old the same as the 2 year old, but goes to sleep faster then the 2 year old. In the day they are all screaming. The 5 year old goes to school from Noon – 2:30, but he’s here in the day. In the afternoon there’s no way in hell I can take a nap. In the evening I usually don’t want to sleep, but even if I try to sleep around 7pm or something, to take a nap, I still cant cause the kids.

AND THEN when its not the kids… which is rare that its not, its my cat!!! Or a lot of times its the kids, AND the cat.

I’m getting frustrated more then I usually am.

I still haven’t been able to figure out how to add a avatar to my posts on here.

I also got some bill problems as well. I still cant get a damn job either. I think the fact I didn’t go to High School affected me in certain social skills you learn in High School. I got my GED though.

I want to go to college, but I am so scared, confused, and don’t know what to do.

I feel like screaming. I want to go somewhere away from everyone, and just yell until I get tired. Scream, yell, cry all I want until I get tired and fall asleep.

Last night the bitch went psycho again. She had the nerve to tell my mom and dad that its their fault she is screwed up. They failed in raising her. Bullshit. She’s just looking for someone to blaim when she gets thrown in jail. 1 week or so to go, until her court. Then one way or another she is GONE!!!

She called my dad someshit you dont call your dad, especially infront of him. My dad ran after her, I know he wanted to kick her ass, I did, my other sister did, we all want to. My mom was telling him to leave her alone.

He and my mom then got angry at each other cause my dad cant take it no more, and neither can my other sister or me.

My mom tried to leave, but my dad wouldnt let her get into the car.

We were all shouting, the whole fuckin neiborhood was outside watching this.

After my parents started fighting I walked right up to her face hoping she would hit me, so I could kick her ass.

I told her to leave, to get the fuck out of here. I told her she ruined everything, she fucked up, and that she could go to hell, get locked up, or die, I didnt give a crap. I told her how its her fault everything is how it is right now.

She tried to use the line, “Yeah I sold drugs, I had to make money to keep my apartment for my kids!” Stupid bitch. I told her, yeah what you couldnt get a JOB!!!

So now the whole neighborhood knows us as, “the family with the druggy.”

Instead of me talking about how yesterday I took my nephew on his field trip to a Dairy Farm full of cows and crap. Maybe the crap was a sign on how crap would hit the fan later today.

She left after standing outside yelling on her own, after we came into the house.

Around 11:30 she came back with her dude. I was trying tog et the 2 and 1 year old to sleep. As was my mom, she came out when she woke up hearing the 2 year old crying. She never NEVER wants to go to sleep. She rather be up running around at 3am.

They came back… my parents didnt tell her to leave. After all she said, did, THEY STILL LET HER BACK IN!!!!!

I WANT HER GONE! IN JAIL! DEAD! I DONT GIVE A FLYING FUCK!!

I cant take this no more. My 5 yr old nephew is gonna flunk Kindergarten cause his bitch of a mother doesnt help him with his work. Doesnt make him do it. And when we try she starts shit to leave him alone, that she’s gonna help him, BUT SHE DOESNT!!

SHE DOESNT DO ANYTHING BUT WRECK PEOPLES LIVES!! HER KIDS LIVES!!

Ive been getting my chest pains 100% more then I had been. And now they are different kinds of chest pains, not like the ones I had been getting. She’s gonna end up fucking killing me. Right now, 12pm, over 15hrs when this argument went down, and my chest hurts.

She keeps her kids locked in the room with her, trying to make them sleep all fucking day so she can sleep. Another reasonw hy the 2 year old never wants to sleep at night.

I cant take this shit. Its fucking killing me.

Stupid Bitch left new years eve, its the 3rd now, and still isnt back. Her dude left a little bit ago, leaving the kids asleep in the room alone. I was about to go to sleep, cause I wanted to go see Lord of the Rings : Return of the King in the morning, but guess I wont be going… again.

Since it came out, I havent been able to see it, cause of this bitch. Right now my mom is asleep on the couch with my niece who woke up. She wont go with me, cause my mom has her spoiled, so she only wants to go with my mom.

My mom had 3 weeks off, X-Mas break, she worked one of them for more money, and the other 2, she still hasnt stopped. Hasnt rested cause of the idiote bitch. But she dont care, she dont tell her shit. So she’s gonna keep doing what she is doing til she gets locked up. I dont care if they lock her up, either way, I dont want her here.

Almost 3 am right now. I havent even updated the rest of my site. I dont have time to with all this shit going on. And there is something EVERYDAY.

So far this year isnt starting off great. But neither has the others been great, so why expect this year to be diff hu?