Stuck on a boat…

Have you ever have a day that you realize was like the day before? And the day before that? And so on for a couple of days? An entire week? Maybe even longer? That’s been my week so far. I’ll have good moments and then I’ll just feel like crap. Like I’m waiting for something that’s never going to happen. As if I’m stuck and I can’t move, can’t go forward and all I have is that current moment and the memories of my past. Memories you don’t even want to look at because they will make you remember what used to be, and will never be again? You miss things, people, moments, because what you have now? Yeah… Like you’re stuck on a boat in the middle of nowhere, no oars, no engine, just drifting afloat, nowhere to go. You can’t go back, but you can’t go forward towards land because you don’t have anything to direct the boat with. You’re at its mercy, drifting, and having to sit there and deal with the painful reality that you are not in control, and you can’t do anything about it but pretend like you’re ok, because if not, you’ll start to melt down, rock the boat, and fall over…

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