Have you ever just been hit all of a sudden with a overwhelming feeling of sadness that you almost feel your soul hurt? Tonight I felt that way, actually morning, I’ve just not gone to bed yet. I usually don’t feel that way until March, and April, when he died. But I guess this year it’s come early because as I lay in bed watching a movie I just felt this wave of sadness come down on me. I’m never gonna be free of the pain.