Category Archives: Family

It’s been a while…

It has been a long while since I’ve “blogged.” The term seems so outdated and silly. Who blogs still? Unless it’s a genre, or new source, or something of that nature. I don’t think there is a “blog” scene anymore. But with that being said, I don’t really care. I will blog if I feel fit to, and have something on my mind. That is what this was for to begin with, a place to vent, to express, and to just try and deal.

Since my last post I have been trying to do just that. Deal. I’ve done well in some areas, but not so well in others. Things have happened that have brought me down to levels I never knew I had. And that is saying a lot if you’ve read past posts, especially posts regarding one of my sisters. Thing’s have changed. Thing’s are different now. Thing’s are not better.

While I can’t say what has happened specifically, it’s a home wrecking, family splitting, never ending nightmare. built with lies and malice. That is my stance on the issue, that is what I believe.

I was never one for the holidays, but the small things I enjoyed doing, have even been taken away. I start to have anxiety/panic attacks thinking of what has happened, of certain people, of things that will never be. I can’t think of things of what was, and not hurt. It’s been about a year and a half since the biggest thing happened. It’s been a year and a half in which I’ve not been able to talk about things, to process, to heal… because you can’t heal from this. I can’t. I have tried. I’ve tried to ignore, to block things, but I can’t. I let myself believe I had, that I was dealing, but I wasn’t. I’m starting to feel like I did when it just happened.

I’m drowning inside myself and I can’t get out of the water. I’m running out of air.

I don’t want to hurt anymore.


The Odd Life of Timothy Green

titleoddlife Well Wed. evening I went to see a new movie opening that day, “The Odd Life of Timothy Green.” I had seen a preview for this movie months ago, maybe even a year ago if that long, it seemed that long at least. I have to say it was everything I hoped it was, and sadly everything I thought it would be. What? Well let me explain, but first off if you’ve not seen this and plan to do so STOP READING NOW. You have been warned!

timgreenredcarpetThe film stars Jennifer Garner, Joel Edgerton and most importantly CJ Adams a fairly newcomer to the silver screen, previously in Dan in Real Life starring Steve Carell. I have not seen Dan in Real Life so I had not seen Adams in a film before and I must say that  this little boy is not only adorable but also a talented child actor. I can only hope he goes the way of Neil Patrick Harris (successful), and not the way of poor Macaulay Culkin (ripped to shreds). Adams plays a little boy who grows from out of his “parents” garden after they bury a box containing pieces of notepad paper with ideas of what their child would have been liked after they were told that they would never be able to have a child after going into debt trying all kinds of fertility treatments. Heartbroken Garner and Edgerton’s characters grieve for the child they would never have.

Later that evening a freak rainstorm only above their home… see the film you’ll understand… Timothy miraculously rises out of the muddy garden… with leaves growing out of his legs. Of course Garner and Edgerton are blind sided to say the least and at the same time incredibly excited and happy. We get to watch the two new parents grow close with Timothy, at times apart with themselves, and how to be parents and deal with their own family issues. Let me tell you, those issues and their family members are not a walk in the park… unless its a park with dead trees and 110+ degree weather. We also get to see Timothy try and be a “normal” boy in a not so normal situation… we also learn that he has a secret, what that is I will let you find out but it is and was painfully obvious to me before I went in to see this and made iron clad within the first few minutes of the film.

I am not one who usually enjoys a Jennifer Garner film but in this case I thoroughly enjoyed her performance as well as Edgerton’s performance. However it must be said and has to be clear to everyone that the star of this film is Adams. The young actor is smart, has good timing, great facial expressions, and a bright smile that reminds you of a young Haley Joel Osment, or a young Macaulay Culkin (pre-issues). The film is a heart warming and some would say sappy film but I say it is what it is, a heart warming endearing film that is a true family film that everyone can enjoy and I actually mean that… you won’t get any false or sound bite lines here.

So do yourself a favor and go and see this film, take your kids (old enough to sit through a film please, I had to deal with someone’s crying baby…) and make it a family night out. Or if you like make it a escape from your everyday hectic life as I did and left the kids home (niece and nephews). oddlifestill

Sad Update

Well my only remaining grandparent has passed away. She landed in the hospital Friday the 4th of Feb. and passed away last night on the 8th of Feb. It’s hard to watch something like this, to see someone fighting to live and see them have to be shocked back to life, only to pass away after that struggle. To add to the misfortune and tragedy, funeral costs… there has to be something done to lower these funeral costs. Its like having a knife stabbed in your back (the loss of someone) and then having it twisted (the cost of the funeral).

RIP Grandma.

She passed almost exactly 10 years from my grandfather (her husband). Both in Feb. Grandfather on my sisters bday, and grandmother 20 minutes from my nephews birthday, and the day after her daughter some 32 years ago, and the day after her friend passed. Insane isn’t it.

Odd isn’t it…

If your unlucky enough to lose someone to brain cancer you tell yourself that nothing like that could happen again. How could you personally know another person in your life time to fall to that illness. Well this week I found out that anything is possible. My grandmother died from brain cancer some years ago, this week a aunt of mine on my grandmothers side died, although before you think it had something to do with genes and hereditary no it did not, my aunt was my aunt by marriage. What a small world right.

Job Interview!

Ok well whoever has been reading my blog, if any that is lol, has read me post about how I will be out of a job soon and that I was looking for a new one. Well I have an interview this Thursday, tomorrow at 9am and man oh man do I hope I get it. If I don’t it will be based on these factors:

  • I am in school, will they be willing to work with me on a schedule that works with my classes.
  • I cannot do early morning shifts.
  • I need at least some weekends off, I can work some, just as long as I get some off, I will need weekends to work on one of my classes, which is an internship.
  • They just don’t like me or give me a chance.

I am trying to be positive but its hard for me, not so many positive things happen to me so I am used to the negative… Pay is decent, the listing said they have benefits, its easily accessible via public transportation if I have to go that route. If I get this job and I get some security that its not gonna end in some months, or something crazy like that then I can look into purchasing a car or something and finally learning to drive… yep I am 26 and do not drive… I’ve not needed to learn, I don’t have a car, I couldn’t have afforded insurance, there was no reason to learn. If I get this job and its a long term thing then its something I can then look into, meanwhile I will try and not be so nervous and hopefully do good on this interview.

I have set so many things on hold because of the stress of being out of a job soon. I’ve not been able to work on my Android font pack, I’ve not been able to concentrate on site stuff, I’ve been stressing on my credit card payments and my monthly bills, stressing on how long the money I do have will last me so I can keep paying my bills for a bit, one of my cards, if not paid off by the end of the promotional APR I get ALL THE INTERESTED ADDED ON!!! The interest is like 27% or some ridiculous number like that.

Well wish me luck for Thur! Meanwhile I think I will take one day and relax. I can’t go to work today for my normal shift and was thinking of going to a later shift but that might not be possible either due to some family stuff, (today’s my nephews birthday! He’s 12 years old today! I’ll post his picture later, or you can go to my Flickr and search for Gabriel in my uploads! Actually as of right now he’s showing up on my Flickr section on my site right now, the little boy with the messed up hair and white shirt).

If I am lucky I will be watching Eclipse today as well! Not sure if I can work it in with some stuff going on today.


Kindergarten, originally uploaded by typedink.

Yesterday was my ymondanephews 1st day of school. I think it was harder for me, then it was for him. Yes I am aware that his head looks freakishly large, sort of like George Lopez flashbacks when he’s young. But I’ll post another shot of him.

My Oldest Nephew’s Xray

My Oldest Nephew’s Xray, originally uploaded by typedink.

This was the first night he got to St.Joe’s. He broke his pancreas after the pedal on his bike fell off. -Jess

The Kids Before Getting Wet

The Kids Before Getting Wet, originally uploaded by typedink.

Here are the kids before getting wet, the one below of them wet was taken with my camera phone and posted right after I snapped it. This one was with my Rebel XTi. One with an effect, one without. Both sharpened as much as possible, don’t know what happened, most shots were out of focus. Damn it.

Kids on a hot day…

Kids on a hot day…, originally uploaded by typedink.

I wish I was little, they r gettin wet in a water fountain area… But Im sittin in da heat…. -Jess