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Well, so X-Mas is over. Another year almost over.

Had unexpected…. well invited, but never thought they would come, show up. It was odd, but ok I guess. I think some of them really liked coming over.

My family is going out of town for a few days, but I dont want to go. Still undecided.

I upgraded my board from 2.0.10 to 2.0.11 phpbb. Had a few errors, but managed.

I still need HELP HELP HELP getting this damn SCode installed into my blog. PLEASE SOMEONE HELP!

I dont have pics this X-Mas of the kids, but I did get video. If I had a firewire port I would upload it to my comp. I can USB wise, but no audio, and crappy looking.

Hope everyone was safe, got atleast something they wanted, and had some fun.

I think I might be changing my layout soon again.. yeah yeah yeah.

Later.

Ok, ok, dont look at me as if I was a grinch, (just a note Friday How the Grinch Stole Christmas w/ Jim Carry will be on Fri. on The WB), its just this whole Christmas time, sux. I mean I like gettin the tree, lighting it up, putting lights on the house, which I barley started last night. Put stuff on the tree, and started with the house today… well last night technically its another day already. But I cant be one of those people you see around, shopping, happy, wearing christmas related cloathing. Even if I wanted to, something inside me, makes me feel as if, its all stupid.

Would I like to have one of those families, where they go all out for christmas? Throw a party, have egg nog or some shit and stand around a tree singing Christmas Caroles? No. The song’s are the worst part, or atleast one of the things I cant stand to listen to.

There’s maybe a second of a second, of a second, of a millasecond when maybe, just maybe I think it might be ok, but just as fast, its gone. Christmas is depressing.

I wasnt one of those kids who waited up for Santa, put out cookies and milk, and tried to hear some fat guy with a red suit come down a chiminey… hell we never had a chiminey. I knew where the presents came from, and some years how we were lucky to have any at that, and damn that if I was gonna be nieve and give the credit to some fake symbol of Christmas.

Sometimes I wish I could just stop, be happy, not worry. But I cant, its not me, its not who I am, who I turned into. I havent been happy in years. And every year, EVERY YEAR something big, something bad happens. Ever since my grandpa (dad’s dad), died in April of 96. April 13, 1996. That made me not like Easter either.

Only holiday I like, look foward to, is Halloween. The holiday you can hide your face behind a mask, and not be a freak in doing so.

I dont know if I would have liked to have been one of those kids leaving Oreo’s for the fat guy, or singing those crap christmas songs, or having a Christmas party.

I dont know if one day I will be happy, not worry about everything. Sure I’ll have some days that were ok, but I’m never really happy. Havent been in a real long time.

Just Monday, when putting the tree up, my mom and I got into a huge argument about it. Wont get into the details, but it was stupid, yet it still was an argument.

Do I miss that? Sometimes, when I see someone else happy and it reminds me just what happy is, but then it leaves me, I forget, and I’m back to me. Back to not knowing what happy is.

Ok… I am pissed off… I left for a bit.. came back, someone stole my Lucy pumpkin!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It didnt even look that good, but still it was mine, and I made it. It wasnt easy, and some jerk stole it…

I put a huge sign on the livingroom window that reads with a pic of the pattern next to it:

WHO STOLE MY PUMPKIN?!

Damn jerks…. next year I am keeping them indoors, and putting a sign, ‘no candy this year compliments of the jerk or jerks who stole my pumpkin last year!’

If I seem a bit weird over a pumpkin… its not that, it takes time and effort to make them. For someone to steal it, its like stealing a drawing of mine. I did take pics of it, but none where that good, Iwas going to take more pics when I got home… and it was GONE.

Well I had an unexpected trip to Rocky Point with my family for July 4th. But it wasnt all great… hardly at all really.

It was HOT HOT HOT!!! HUMID HUMID HUMID!!! I slept in our van outside, cause my cousins place was as stated above HOT AND HUMID! I now have many many bites of something on my arms, and feet. So many on my right that whatever bit me had anou poison or whatever to make my arm hurt, and made me feel like crap.

On the way home we stopped at a place so I could get checked out. My bites still bother me, they itch. We were there at Rocky Point on the 4th and left on the 6th.

We did go to the beach. I actually got in, but didnt go far, since I cant swim. What sucked though, was that the damn water wasnt even cool. It was warm, thats how freakin hot it was.

A week or so before I went to see Little Orphan Annie play at the Herberger Theater downtown here. Performed by the Valley Youth Theater. And let me tell you, these kids were great. They could sing, and dance better then many of the ‘artists’ out there today. Hopefully I can see more plays by them in the future.

Anyways, as I said I feel like crap, and these bites are bothering me, so til later…. oh and this will make me take longer to put up the new layout out… things keep coming up… also I notices my counter reset, anyone remember where it was let me know? I put it at what I think I saw last, but not sure if it was past the 1000 mark or 2000 so anyone remember let me know.

Ok everyone knows I hate holiadys. Especially Xmas and Easter. Only one I do like is Halloween, and the fact we get to eat a turkey on Thx Giving. But to those that like holidays:

Merry Xmas, and have a good new year. Dont drive drunk, or do anything st00pid.

So yeah, I’m still here. I wonder if thats a good thing or a bad one?

Holidays are upon us. Turkey day came and went. Without any fighting, let me say I am the most shocked of all. My mom’s brother and my mom’s mom stopped by for a bit. Then my cousin stopped by with his family. Then his mom and his bro, (my tia, and other cousin), stopped by as well.

There was alot of screaming from the kids though. They ran around, yelled, made a mess, etc.

I’m still sick, so wasnt that great for me. Though it never is. I have been sick since October 24th I think. First with strep throat, that lasted about 2 weeks. I was ok for a whole 3 days, then I got a cold, and still have it. Sucks to be me and get sick.

Then today when I woke up… had some turkey again. Went to the store, but didnt buy nothing. I saw all the people shopping, how nice, wish I could shop. I dont expect much this christmas, cause money is an issue right now. I dont really care though. I would like to have some lights up, but all the ones we have are (no lie here) about more then 12 years old. So yeah, they gave in a while ago. We got a few lights a few years old, but not many, not enough to put up. We didnt have a tree last year, and from the looks of it, proly wont this year…

I dont look forward to Xmas.

My sister has court Monday I believe… more hell to break loose.

If I dont update for a long ass time, well then my net got cut.